show me the way ;

Sunday, December 12, 2010

~ 1:11 AM ~

I was so reluctant to go back to SCS but I obviously didn't have a choice. That place brings back bad memories for me. While almost everyone was enjoying their foundation term at there, I doubt I was doing so. Even those people who were from the same company as me felt the same way. So I wasn't the odd one out.

Anyway, I really don't like the event currently going on and PLC at all. I can't wait to get over with it. There are some people who actually liked the camp but that's because their previous camps was worse than this. I would gladly trade 10 days of SCS for 30 days of SI. That shows how much I really enjoyed the time at SI. Anyway, the only time that I will enjoy at PLC is when I watch Invincible Youth after lights out.

The biggest joke for the past 3 days - I was told to change my mindset for the 10 days by someone (Person A) who didn't like his vocation without realizing that he has to stick with it for the rest of his life. His behaviour and words totally betrayed Signals. It is bad enough when people deemed us as slackers but he didn't have to make the situation worse. Even the person who always likes to sleep during lesson time knows more than what Person A knows. That's really quite pathetic. I really want to see how he is going to handle his man next time. There were many things that happened which involved him throughout the past 3 days which I won't mention in detail here. I am 100% sure that everyone from SI P2 will agree with what I said about him and the event.

I really hope that I will be posted back to SI. Although I wasn't exactly the first choice, I believe I have the quality to be posted back there since it has been the tentative posting for me for the past 2 weeks. Let me hear the confirmation on 17th Dec.

Will this year's Christmas be as different as last year's?

cos life's like that

Saturday, December 04, 2010

~ 11:50 PM ~

LONG POST!

For all I know, I haven't been blogging for quite some time but I didn't realize that it has been 2 months since I last blogged. I have been quite busy for every weekend since I entered Signals - all those faithful online studies. Finally, I have much more time for myself this weekend.

Anyway, the 13 week course at SI is about to end on Tuesday. It is really quite sad to leave though. I really enjoyed myself at there, more than BMT and SCS Foundation Term. Perhaps it is because of all the studying and staying in air-con room from 8am to 6pm for almost every day. =) A lot of other things have also happened since I last blogged, which I won't be mentioning in detail. Being the BSO for an exercise, arguments, conflicts, backstabbing, ridiculous comments, stupidity, horlan-ing, laughing until we can't take it etc..practically, we did almost all that we could do at there. All I can say is, such things can only happen once and I am glad that I was part of them.

And, my efforts for this course has indeed paid off. Honestly, I wasn't aiming for the award in the first 2 weeks, I changed my mind and made that award my target. Went for the interview for the top award last Thursday and when I thought back of the questions asked that day, I really felt that I could have done better. But then again, it doesn't matter I didn't get the top award. So long as what comes after that award is what I wanted all along, I am satisfied.

Sometimes, meeting up with friends whom we do not see always, be it coincidentally or purposely, could improve your mood slightly. For example, meeting up with the bowling people today for a number of games and talked to those whom I hardly talk to, and met Kelly (my "sis") at Marina Square. The catching-up part seems to be quite enjoyable? Ok, I don't really know how to phrase the sentence properly. Perhaps you might get what I am trying to drive at.

Short random thoughts:

After all, I was right about 27 Nov. I didn't have enough confidence and I failed. The second attempt, 15th Jan. This time, I have no choice but to succeed. Keeping my fingers crossed and praying hard for it. Oh man.

I still can't let go of NPCC. Even when I am in NS, I still want to be kept updated with the happenings and whenever I can make it for their trainings, I will turn up no matter what. It isn't a burden to me though. Cos that's what I enjoy doing. =)

Harry Potter 7 Part 1 was nice! I seriously can't wait for Part 2. And I think I will re-watch the entire series again before watching Part 2. If i have the time to do so though.

And if you are reading this blog and still don't know yet, I am a fan of Rainie Yang. Don't ask me why. You can never understand if you are not her fan. Haha.

Ok, I think that's that. Going back to PLC on Wednesday for CAT. Wonder how I will react when I get to see those close army friends that I have made since BMT. Lols.

cos life's like that

Sunday, October 03, 2010

~ 3:21 PM ~

Haven't been updating my blog for about 2 weeks already. Didn't really have a choice also. Need to do this CCNA Networking online modules every weekend and it took me at least 3 hours per module. The worse thing is that after spending so much time on each module, I don't really understand or remember the contents. As much as I am interested in learning about networking, it is still too foreign to me.

Anyway, I just realised that yesterday was the day that my blog's 5th "birthday". I didn't expect myself to blog for that long especially when I think there is hardly anyone who actually reads it. When I looked at those posts I made when I first started blogging, I couldn't believe that I actually typed all those posts with that kind of language. This showed that I have changed a lot. Come to think of it, when looking through all the posts since 1st entry until now, I could really see that I have a changed.

Have been studying and attending lectures for the past 3 weeks at Signal Institute. I feel that it is worse than JC but better than other vocations in army. Lols. Seriously, I think studying is much more enjoyable. Don't really have to bother about other things, just focus on academic performance unless you want to mention about social life too which we have to focus on our inter-personal skills.

Seriously, I can't wait for 27 Nov. Kind of confident about it for now. Just hope I can maintain this level of confidence on that day.

I can't seem to keep up.
The consequences? I can't imagine.

You,me
We're face to face
But we don't see eye to eye
Like fire and rain (Like fire and rain)
You can drive me insane (You can drive me insane)
But I can't stay mad at you for anything
We're Venus and Mars (We're Venus and Mars)
We're like different stars (Like different stars)
But you're the harmony to every song I sing
And I wouldn't change a thing

cos life's like that

Sunday, September 12, 2010

~ 4:18 PM ~

What a week! It started off with 2 block leave days till Tuesday, then report to new camp on Wednesday - unpack all the things and some admin stuff, block leave on Thursday, public holiday on Friday. Nice. Think this is one of the rarest week that I can have in army. But I didn't really spend the week the way I wanted it to be. That's the down side. Oh well.
Actually, come to think of it, what people have been saying about my vocation isn't exactly true. We aren't a stand alone vocation. That's the problem. Imagine for example, having to do Infantry stuff on top Signals. Sian. And it is all about studying. 70% of the scoring system is made up of knowledge. Wth. As much as I want to go back to study, it is just not in the right manner and ideal environment. This sucks luh. Piang.

On a lighter note, I am getting closer to my driving license. While I have already finished my lessons, I am just short of the test date. It is so troublesome - I need a Saturday test.

I still don't want to admit that I gave up.

And I'll never make it without you
I need a second chance
Cause I want to make it about you
I'm making my last stand
It took a moment to say
It wasn't you it was me
I couldn't let you in
Now I'm ashamed I pushed you away from me
Now I'm afraid it's too late to save again

cos life's like that

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

~ 12:48 AM ~

Ok,so I am done with phase 1 - foundation term. That's after the terrible 28km route march. It wasn't exactly 28km. It was more of 32-35km? Kept walking and walking with 15mins break every 8km. -.- That march was seriously tiring. After we were done with cleaning up, my shoulders and thighs were aching like mad. I would rather do SOC 5 times consecutively instead. ZZZ.
Anyway, I didn't expect that I will be going to Signals. It's like so unexpected when I thought I was almost going to CBRE. Oh well. Signals doesn't seem too bad either although I didn't really hear much about it from my friends. But! The camp is even further away now - Choa Chu Kang. Sian.

Didn't really do much this weekend + 2 days of block leave. Just had this sian feeling throughout the 4 days. Oh, yah. I went to support the NPCC drill team at HSC. Congratulations to them for winning 1st for Drill Com 2010! Once again, I didn't help them out during drill com trainings. But through the performance they did on that day, I could tell how much effort they had put in for the competition(claps). Went back to Dunman yesterday for the Sec 4s POC. Yet I saw another batch of Sec 4s stepping down officially. That was the 3rd batch I had seen in my CI life. It just makes me develop this feeling that I am old, compared to them. Although I kept mentioning that I had served Dunman NP for 7 years and still counting, I will never out-serve Firdaus. He is on his 9th year this year. He truly deserves those compliments from everyone in the unit.

I am so going to get my driving license by end of this year!

I still don't understand why you can't understand
my actions, body language etc are evidence
and yet you are still behaving in that way
I know I am being unkind/evil or whatever you call it
but I believe that's because you made me do so
you don't know where to draw that line
I am just holding back now
you won't want me to cross that "safety barrier"
it's going to get ugly if I do so
and I really mean it
you ought to learn.

When the world falls down like rain
It'll bring you to your knees
Somethin' 'bout love that breaks your heart
Woah, oh, oh, oh
But don't give up
There's something 'bout love

cos life's like that

Sunday, August 22, 2010

~ 5:34 PM ~

NICE! Had a long weekend this week. Not that I chaokeng and get an extra day off, but is because the company gave us an off-in-lieu day on Friday because of the section live firing held on a Saturday. Actually, the long weekend started on Thursday evening. We had Chervons Night at The Chervons at about 6pm. The entire night was about playing games and drinking beer. Not that we got no other alcohol, but that was the main drink for the night. Had a couple of cups that night.

Took this long weekend to rest as much as possible and also try to enjoy since I finally had about 3 days rest instead of only 1 and a half days for the past few weeks. -.- Went to watch Salt on Friday (like finally) and I thought it was quite a nice show. Then on Saturday, went to supperclub as there was nus sci bash held at there. Could have stayed after the evening until Sunday morning but couldn't because of driving lesson at 10am. Sian.

Last time when I was still schooling, I always say that studying is sian/boring etc. Now, I really want to go back to school or uni as a matter of fact. Seriously, when you are studying, you only have to bother about your studies and your school life (generally speaking). And especially after that event last night, that glimpse of uni life really makes me even more want to go back to school. This sucks.

I know that I'm not perfect
But I keep trying
Cause that's what I said
I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely
So please don't leave
Was it something I said
Or just my personality

cos life's like that

Sunday, August 15, 2010

~ 4:39 PM ~

Did the dumbest thing on the last Friday of July. In the end, I had to stay in camp from 6th August. Can't even go home for the long weekend. And the worst thing is that, I had nothing to do at all while the usual people had an outing. That really sucks. Zzz. Seriously, once is enough and I am so not going to make that mistake anymore.
I was like so close to getting a Commando's gold for IPPT! Didn't know what actually had happened on that retest day but I think it had got to do with a sudden adrenaline rush. Managed to do 12 pull ups which was shocking to me. Not trying to show off because I can't even do 12 now. Haha! I was being let down by my running time, 10min and 20 sec. Oh well. At least I attained silver and my extra $100. Nice..I just realised that in the entire company, I am the only one who hasn't go home/book out on a Friday. 1st week - COS, 2nd week - sports day, 3rd week - RT, 4th week - confinement, 5th week - CBRE. To think that there are people who say that they don't have much time over the weekends. Totally oblivious to their surroundings. Pathetic.

Went to peng chang someone whom I should have some time back last night. I didn't even know that she had changed her job and worked there. Ok, I shall leave some details out since it is rather personal. Just for your info, it is something that I don't think I will do that often.

Almond, hazelnut and caramel coffee

Im stuck here in this life i didn’t ask for
There must be something more,
Do we know what we’re fighting for?
Breathe in breathe out
And all these masks we wore
We never knew what we had in store
Breathe in breathe out

cos life's like that