Sunday, September 27, 2009
~ 1:47 AM ~
How is it possible for time to seemingly pass so fast when we are playing and relaxing and yet seemingly pass so slow when we are studying? I just realised that it is already Sunday and I have not relax enough yet! 2 days after exams and in other 2 more days, we are back to our old timetable with lectures and tutorials. Oh man.. And the best thing is that we have to do Chemistry Prelims correction template and two Math paper by tuesday when we are supposed to be having our break. Looks like there is some communication breakdown between ____ and ____. zzz. But anyway, it also doesn't feel like it is the end of the Prelims. Everything seem so moodless, lifeless and dead. Was it supposed to be like this or the opposite?
Another matter. Seriously, what's with all this discrimination? You think you are that great? You can't even give someone another chance and even if your skills are that great, you as a person, is just mediocre. Jokes are jokes and obviously you got to know where to draw the line. Not everyone is the same where you can push your luck everytime and hope that you can get your way. Apparently, you clearly lack that simple knowledge of where to draw that line. That's really pathetic. Why keep on insisting that ____ committed that act when it was an accident? You think ____ did that on purpose just because ____ didn't like his attitude? How simple-minded can you be? You only know how to side the opposite party because everyone is doing so and I had a post that most of you don't like. So was it necessary to give up something that ____ had worked for, for that friendship? That shouldn't even be one of the options. This discrimination carried on and on with no ending point. How cruel can you be? Is it that difficult for you to give another chance for this matter? Will it harm you or put you at a disadvantage? Try putting yourself in the shoes of ____ and think about how he would feel. You think he would enjoy it? If you can't think about this, then you should consider going for EQ 'improvement' session and learn how to handle human relationship. Maybe you should that passage one more time and in-depth. And maybe even spread that passage to those who don't have it. Clever people should understand the meaning behind that passage. If you don't, then you get what I am hinting at already. I doubt the main 'target' would read this personally but if you think that you are being referred here, then maybe you should really think hard.
she told me to tell you the truth
but for such things, I am reluctant
for fear of the negative consequences
all I know is that I will carry on with what I am doing now
till the day that I am confident enough
but that day...when will it be?
hope it will be soon
time isn't really on my side
its 44 now and starts with a K! =)
Monday, September 21, 2009
~ 2:17 AM ~
It has been a really stressful week for me. Everyday was like, exam-lunch-study-dinner-study-sleep. Only watched the tv during meal times. That's like so...zzz. Really wished that next friday would arrive faster. Then I can get my much-needed rest. Just realised that I can't change my habit as fast as I want it to be. I don't even know why I kept on thinking about things that I can no longer change. I would only end up regretting for not doing certain things. In a way, it allows me to know where my mistakes were but on the other hand,it hinders my progress. It is like pulling me back and live in my past. Zzz. Guess I really got to find a way to get rid of this habit. Sometimes, I wish I could be like you. You really gave me an impression that you are always that carefree.
On another matter,
I guess I have to face the problem soon or later
it wasn't meant to be like this
seriously
everything can just go on as per normal
so whose fault is it now?
nevertheless,I believe I do have to take responsible for some
its 44 now and starts with a K! =)
Saturday, September 05, 2009
~ 1:40 AM ~
study study study!
have been studying since last Saturday
really hope all these efforts pay off
really do need to have that kind of motivation for the A's
after all, I honestly don't believe that my results are that bad
especially going through the revision period, I got a good feeling about the exams
not trying to "hao lian" or what luh
but that's what i really feel
can't blame me for it
ok
so, now there's the 5th person
I also didn't know what actually made me tell that person
maybe is because of the talk that I had with that person previously
lols
but I know it wasn't a wrong decision to do so
its 44 now and starts with a K! =)
Thursday, September 03, 2009
~ 3:14 AM ~
somehow, I don't really like study breaks or holidays
it gives me more time to ponder about miscellaneous stuffs
even though the "more" time is supposed to be for studying for the prelims
but in any case, I also have been sleeping late
and that explains why I am blogging at such hour -.-
so, after all, I still did my studying
after that day in the small lecture theatre, I didn't expect there was another repeat
but yet, there was one on last friday and yesterday
I had mixed feelings then - whether to be happy or sad
you asked me not to think so much even though you didn't know what was troubling me
the rest also asked me not to do so too
but somehow, I couldn't
I once said it will be bonus if that really happened
but now, I seemed to have placed it as top priority
and I am falling deeper into it
like what I have mentioned earlier - I didn't expect your influence on me was so great
oh well
I also can't really do much
as much as I want to do certain things, it is also up to the opposite party to 配合
but for now, I only know that I miss your smile
its 44 now and starts with a K! =)
