Monday, July 21, 2008
~ 12:18 AM ~
I just realized that I have changed drastically since last year. I still can remember, I wasn't like this in the past. I don't know what have caused me to change until like this but I guess it actually started after the NPCC overseas trip last year bah.
It is hard to understand me now. My thoughts, my way of doing things, my personality and surprisingly, moodswings. One moment happy, one moment emo-ing.
Changes really make others either surprised or irritated. Sometimes, I really wonder what caused a person to change. The attitude towards others and so on. Although you can say that people tend to change naturally but I believe there is a reason/cause to it.
Everyone seemed to have changed and nothing seemed to be able to remain as what they are initially.
Change, a simple 6 letter word but difficult to understand/accept when happened to someone.
~ 12:05 AM ~
Ok. Today's soccer match is crappy. Farshad organized a match which took place at Damai Secondary School. The weather was so perfect for a soccer match (neither too sunny nor too rainy) until when we wanted to kick off. It rained for the first half of the match and we looked like weirdos running under the rain and mis-kicking the ball because the ground was super slippery! But in the end, we lost terribly maybe because there ain't any proper formation. Luckily I didn't catch a cold or flu. Heng arh.
Next Saturday is Dunman's 45th Anniversary and Prize Giving Day. I will be going up to the stage to receive my award for getting 7 distinctions for O Levels. I still can remember the past 4 years before my O level year, I was looking at those people who went up to the stage to receive their award. I was thinking is either they are crazy people or they are really zai because I had doubts of myself getting such awards. Then last year, we were like saying "8 distinctions will be mine", "8 distinctions so easy to get" and so. Lol.
But on that day, it will be very rush for me lah. I am in the parade as the Flag Party Commander, in the SPDS squad to perform for the Guest of Honour to see and have to go up to the stage to get my award. Which means, I have to change from NPCC Full Uniform to PT Kit to MJC college uniform. Omg. I will have to bring a super huge bag to Dunman on that day. =(
Sunday, July 20, 2008
~ 11:54 PM ~
Cable Ski is FUN!
except I had to use kneeboard for that two hours.
=x
Thursday, July 17, 2008
~ 11:47 PM ~
Sometimes, I do wonder what I am thinking. Initially, I wasn't thinking of those things throughout the whole day and suddenly at night, I turned on the computer and I had to do something which made me emo again. Thoughts started running through my head and I want to type my thoughts out but it ain't convenient here.
My life. Trying to enjoy as much as I can but it seems difficult to me. I looked through my DISC profiling which I have done in Secondary 2. I just realised that I am a high "C" person which means that I am a thinker => thinks a lot.
Things are simple as they are to by-standers/outsiders but to me, they aren't that simple at all. Facade, it is all about facade.
Friday, July 11, 2008
~ 12:58 AM ~
难道我们就是会一直这样下去吗？
去年年底和今年的前一两个月，我们是有说有笑。
我不懂你是怎样想的，
但是我是的确珍惜那段时间。
也许我还不是很了解你吧。
当我做那件傻事时，我并不知你是否生气或有其他感觉。
现在，我和你好像陌生人一样。
我不是要求你做什么，但是起码让我知道你在想什么。
Many things have been floating across my mind. Sometimes, I don't even know what I am thinking and why I am thinking of these things. A simple life made complicated by me. This is getting nowhere.
Don't ask anything anyway.
